“As Hansel said to Gretel, ‘drop these bread crumbs so that together we could find our way home because losing our way would be the most cruel of things. This year, I lost my way. And losing your way on a journey is unfortunate, but losing your reason for the journey is a fade more cruel. This journey lasted eight months.  Sometimes I traveled alone.  Sometimes there were others that took the wheel and took my heart. But when the destination was reached, it wasn’t me who had arrived. It wasn’t me at all.  And once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be or lose that person completely. Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you’ve been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are. George Bernard Shaw once wrote there are two tragedies in life. One is to lose your heart’s desire, the other is to gain it.  Clearly, Shaw had his heart broken once or twice. As far as I’m concerned, Shaw was a punk because you know what? Tragedies happen.  What are you gonna do, give up? Quit? No. I realize now that when your heart breaks you’ve gotta fight like hell to make sure you’re still alive, ’cause you are, and that pain you feel..that’s life. The confusion and fear? That’s there to remind you that somewhere out there, there’s something better and that something is worth fighting for. This year I got all that I wanted and everything that I wished for…but in a way, I lost even more. Shaw was right. As we strain to grasp the things we desire, the things we think will make our lives better– money, popularity, fame–we ignore what truly matters…the simple things like friendship, family,love…the things we probably already had. Yes, losing your heart’s desire is tragic. But gaining our heart’s desire is all you can hope for. This year I wished for love, to immerse myself into someone else and to wake a heart afraid to heal. My wish was granted. If having that is tragic, then give me tragedy. ‘Cause I wouldn’t give it back for the world.”

By Fatima

wife + mom. sustainability strategist, interior designer, writer. sharing faith and our growing domestic church. creating a slow, sustainable, low waste home.


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