Every Sunday night, including this one, I come home grateful for my job at St. Agnes no matter how awesome or how challenging it may have been. Even with the crosses I bear on a weekly basis at work, I am truly blessed to be here and I am so privileged to be able to work for and with such wonderful teens and selfless young adult volunteers.
Every Sunday night, I also come home with a happy, but tired, needy, and restless heart. Just because I am the Coordinator of Youth Ministry doesn’t mean I am the perfect Catholic Christian, but you can bet that I am constantly striving to become who God wants me to be right now; not for show or to fulfill any expectations, but because I know I cannot do this on my own and my soul is always in dire need of Him. Constantly I am spending my days telling Jesus how much I need Him desperately for strength, for endurance, for patience… for anything that I can use to help me keep my eyes and heart focused on His Will.
These past few months, thanks be to God, I have been growing more and more content with being limited, most especially when it comes to my work. When you have the souls of so many teens on your hands to a certain degree, you can’t help but desire to do it all…but, you can’t. You simply can’t. It’s not humanly possible. You can only pray you do as much as you are called to, and trust that God will do the rest in His unlimited, infinite power. That, THAT gives me so much comfort and peace.
The song below has been on my heart’s prayer as of late and I don’t think I have ever listened to this without my eyes remaining dry. So while I am grateful for this amazing job, I am ever so grateful for God being my God, and for being my Healer, my Comfort, my Peace, my Father, my Mighty Warrior, my King, my Savior, my Lifeline.. my Everything.
And me? I can just be me.